9 months, how did that happen? And looking back at 2015

Hey internet.  If you haven’t guessed, the end of 2015 and the beginning of 2016 really ramped up… and technically I SHOULD be doing something more productive… like corrections to a document or folding laundry or dishes or walking the dog, but instead I’m blogging.  I guess I just need a brain break 😉

So, tomorrow my tiny boss, aka Bernhard Joseph, the second great love of my life will be 9 months old!!!  How the heck did that happen?!?!  He’s doing really well — he has 8 teeth already, love eating, still nurses a LOT, is full out crawling and has JP and I wrapped around those tiny chubby fingers.  He’s also wearing 18-month clothing, and I’m in the process of boxing up all the 12-month size!!

So, this is only about 6 weeks late, but let’s review 2015 — fair warning, most of my answers are cheesey new mom related!

1. What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before? Gave birth!

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? My theme for last year was kindness.  I feel like keeping to that was hit and miss.  The theme for this year is “Growing into Me” — more on that in a future post (and this is NOT one of those stupid ‘you do you’ thinhs), and hopefully soon and not in 6 months! Also, I’m turning 30 this year and will be reevaluating life then 🙂

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Me!  And there have been LOTS more babies this year, including lots of friends, including some of my closest, and cousins.

4. Did anyone close to you die? We had another year with no deaths in the family.

5. What countries did you visit? Texas.  Hey, it was it’s own country at one point 😉

6. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015? More time with extended family.

7. What date from 2015will remain etched upon your memory and why? May 18th for pretty obvious reasons.  But also August 2nd, the day Bernhard was baptized.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Learning not to loath pumping milk for the baby.

9. What was your biggest failure? Not being kind to myself, and failing at being kind and patient with others.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? December was rough — I had bronchitis followed by a norovirus!

11. What was the best thing you bought? Our second car! It has made life just a bit easier.

12. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Everything baby related, the birth, his milestones, sharing the world with him, watching John Paul turn into a father.

13. What song will always remind you of 2015?  The Good Old Days by P!nk.

14. Compared to this time last year, are you: Thinner or fatter? Thinner! (if I’m going February 2015 to February 2016)

15. Richer or poorer? Richer in various ways 🙂

16. What do you wish you’d done more of? Reading. 2015 was a light year for me. Or board gaming. The first half of the year was ok, the second really light.

17. What do you wish you’d done less of? Smartphone confession time (and I really am a little ashamed of this): candy crush… Yeah…

18. Did you fall in love in 2015? I fell even more head over heels for JP — he was amazing during Bernhard’s birth, I could not have asked for a stronger rock or better birth coach, and he was amazing during my recovery. Also, I maybe changed a handful of diapers during the first couple weeks of Bernhards life — how lucky can a girl get?? And of course I met the number two love of my life.

19. What was your favorite TV program? Uuuummmmm… Maybe Fixer Upper? Or Property Brothers? Both shows feel scripted, the latter more than the former, but JP and I like getting ideas for our home someday once this whole getting the PhD gig is finished.

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? I had an interaction with a member of the public last year that left me feeling horrible and having a strong adversion to her and a certain political candidate running for office. I don’t hate people, but I have an adversion to both. Maybe next year I should change up this question?

21. What was the best book you read? Expecting Better – it was the best pregnancy book I read.  I highly recommend it.

22. What was your greatest musical discovery? Look up Rockabye Baby on youtube — lullaby renditions of the beatles ans more. Need I explain further?

23. What did you want and get? A new family member.

24. What did you want and not get? A little more sleep?

25. What did you not want and get? The whole postpartum gumbo. Things are slowly improving through.

26. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Dinner, cake and hung out with my guys.  Bernhard was only a month old, and I was still recovering so it was perfect.

27. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? A longer day/more time to do wve

28. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015? Nursing mama chic.

29. What kept you sane? As always, John Paul.  But also baby smiles.

30. Which celebrity/public figure did you follow the most? No one really.  I’ve been a bit preoccupied.

30. What political issue stirred you the most? The planned parent hood videos — I, and John Paul, are unapologetically pro-life, and the act of selling baby body parts is horrible on top of the act of killing a defenseless human being. (please note, I will delete comments are inappropriate, my stance on this is NOT up for debate)

31. Who did you miss? The usual suspects — family. I miss John Paul and Bernhard every single day in yhe fiercest of ways when we are apart. They truly are parts of my soul.

32. Who was the best new person you met? Bernhard Joseph!  (duh!), but I’ve also made LOTS of new mom friends.

33. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015:  I am enough. (another forthcoming blog post)  It’s been a really hard lesson now that my life has shifted to being needed not only in my role as a wife and partner in crime to John Paul, but now I have more expectations as a mother to Bernhard. I’ve never had such intense feelings of being an absolute failure before.

34. Quote a song lyric or something that sums up your year: “And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.” Mumford and Sons

I feel like in a way, this snippet describes becoming a mother in top of everything else, postpartum gumbo included.


(please excuse any weird formatting! I finished this post on my iphone after the baby went down)


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